Visit of An Old Friend

My feeling now is very complicated. I feel a little bit sad, but I know that I have a lot of things haven't done, my assignment that I am not able to do, my study that is a lot. Feel a little bit lonely but can not go home, because the new tenant will come to see the house this Tuesday, have class and quiz this Wednesday night, have to do assignment and submit this Friday and I don't know what can be submitted by me this week.

My old friend who I have a long time didn't meet is going to leave now, going back to her university. She comes here this time is to relax, find herself so that she can continue her study in peace and passion. I try my best to help her and encourage her these 2 days, because I know that the only solution for her is by strengthening her heart. Hope that she gets back her mood and strength to continue her life there. Will miss her here.

The following few days will be a good opportunity for me to study, because nobody I can talk to. But the incompleted assignment take the peace away from my heart, I can not concentrate in my study. So I decided to do it tomorrow, if really can not do it then I just give up, at least I tried it. Pray that God will give me wisdom and peace during these few weeks, concentrate in what I should do, not being disturbed by my personal feeling. And hope that the tenant will like the unit that I'm staying now so that I can move next semester. What I face now is not a big deal, this is the process of growing in me, so that I will be more mature. There is no use to complain, what I can do now is just lean on Him and take action in His guidance.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your path straight. - Proverbs 3:5-6

A Message For Us

Recently we noticed something, something that is bad in us, something we should change. That is when some new members join us in some occasions, a few close friends of mine and I will sit in a group and only talk on our own, seldom ask the new member to join us. This is really bad, as a child of God we should not do this, because He asks us to love our neighbors as we love ourselves, so the new members are our neighbors too!

Last weekend, we had our dinner together in Easter, with one of my friends who seldom joined us. We made the same mistake again, and my friend just look at us when we were talking. From his eyes and expression, I felt that he was evaluating us. He didn't join us just like a bunch friends hanging out together like last time anymore, there was a lot of thought in his mind. I didn't like this feeling, I felt bad that night. Is it because I am not good enough? Is it because I looked strange and weird for him? These questions were floating in my mind for the whole night. I think, if we showed our warmth and friendliness and talked more to him that night, maybe this would not happen.

So, we had decided that starting from this week, I will not just care about myself and a few of my close friends only, but also care about the people around us, ask them to join together, share happiness and sadness together. I believe that this not only can wipe out the feeling of being isolated in new members, but also can build each other up in a body, body of Christ!

Funny Sharing

Sharing in front of people really will make us have joy and laugh. Because through sharing, we can let other people know and understand our feeling, what we are thinking about, and also can encourage other people spiritually.

These 2 weeks, I was very enjoy with my Bible study, maybe because we just initialized a new section, that is sharing what we learned in BS after our BS. Last time I was very scare to talk in front of people, now I enjoy it, this is one thing that God has transformed me.

Last week, we shared about His Strength, Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Pei Yin was our main character, we practiced in our room before we shared. The process was so ecstatic, we will follow every action that Pei Yin did, her actions were so funny and enthusiastic, really can touch other people heart, carved the verse in other people's heart.

This week, we discussed about Good Friday. What is the meaning of Good Friday? What does Good Friday mean to you? For this time, I was the main character. For me, Good Friday means the born of spiritual bunny, because after Good Friday and Easter we are born again as a baby spiritually and multiply as Jesus died for our sins on the cross. I acted as a spiritual bunny, and others acted as the bunny that being multiplied. Although I did not do it very well, but I enjoyed and had pleasure from it.

Hope that we can continue with it, sharing with other people, not only with BS group, but also with non-believers, so that they may have the joy that I am having now!

An Answered Prayer

Everyday I prayed to God, "God, please, provide someone for me to rent my room, so that I can move out." Everyday I suffer in this matter, and praying the same thing to Him for a few months, but there was still no reply from Him.

Last night, someone sms me to ask me whether my room is still available! I was so surprise! He really answered my prayer! However, that person is still not sure will rent my room or not. But hope that this is the right person who is provided by Him.

In our daily lives, when we prayed, if the matter that we prayed for does not appear, does not mean that He can not hear it, He is just testing our patience, testing our trust in Him. He is actually see us suffering, and telling us, "Hold on, don't give up, continue it in my way and you will find the answer!" I will continue to walk in His way and have patience for His answer as He had been waiting for me patiently before this.